His Love Knows No End. . . .

For the last couple of months things have been going pretty great. No major complaints. But for some reason I was finding myself falling into some old habits and on a track that I didn't want to be on. I wish I had a good reason for it. You know some major event to trigger it, or some major stress. Anything. But I didn't.   Poor choices. I was starting to feel like I was falling so far off the path I wanted to be on, that I stopped doing my bible study as much, my prayers were thinning out. After a particularly rough week, I got myself to church yesterdy morning. I sat by myself like usual. After the first song a lady sat down by me and we exchanged a smile. We sang the next song. And then the third song. The song was "Love Knows No End" I was wiping some tears away when I realized she was to. During the whole sermon I remember sitting there with this overwhelming feeling that no matter where I was, had been, or  fallen to. His love knows no end for me. What love is that. Unconditional, forever forgiving, constant. After the sermon our last song was, "From The Inside Out" the first line of this song has been a favorite of mine forever, and couldn't have been more fitting for me yeaterday. "A thousand times I've failed, still your mercy remains and should I stumble again still I'm caught in your grace"  Just perfection. I got up to leave and this lady started talking to me about how much it seemed we both really needed that today. We talked for a bit about the sermon and our struggles and she gave me the biggest hug and we left. I couldn't believe how it was exactly what I needed. I'm amazed how many times things like that happen exactly when I need them. I say I love my church and I do, but what I love more is the peace, comfort, kindness, insight I receive there. I love going into God's word. I love having someone explain it to me in ways that apply to my life. I love that the focus is ALWAYS JESUS. ALWAYS. I am a broken, messy, sinner. Daily. I fail constantly. But my heart continues to strive for Him. And He Continues to remind me- His love knows no end.

It's All Good . . .

We FINALLY finished our playroom! We literally started this project like 3 months ago. When we moved in this playroom and a bathroom were re-done by the previous homeowner- he basically took one big room and split it up into a smaller room and bathroom- and it was done HORRIBLY! The framing is crap- the ceiling was crap- the trim was crap- you get the picture. We completely redid the ceiling ( it wasn't square - horrible texture on ceiling and the guy literally nailed drywall into the vent) , sanded the walls ( they had like lumps of paint on them!! ) added a vent ( yep the room had no heat vent! ) and painted the whole thing! It looks so much better and actually looks like its part of our house now! 

Here's a before of the ceiling: 

And after:

So glad that project is done. Korb did a great job!! Next project is that bathroom!!!! 

It's kind of fun remodeling things and seeing the finished project! Our original hope was to put our house up for sale in the spring and move next summer. And as much as I still wish so much that we could I think our best choice is to stay here for a couple more years. We want our next house to be one we stay in for years, and we want to be able to do it how we want and put what we want into it, and get the area we want! And our best bet to accomplish all that is to wait about 3-4 years until Em starts school and I can go back to work! One thing I'm learning is how sometimes we have to make the best of our situation and choices. Do I wish the schools were better out here? For sure! Do I wish I lived much closer to my church? Absolutely. Do I wish my house was brand new and fancy? All the time. But it will come. So for now I'm going to make the best of it and remodel our house slowly to make it more how I want, I'll keep making the drive to my church because I LOVE it, and I will remind myself that I will miss this house and this place when we leave. As Shayla always says to me. . Mom, "Its all good!"

 

Plus they seem pretty happy here!!! :)